CLEANING DAY
( By Rosy Beltrão )
I was in need of a self cleaning ...
To dispose of some unwanted thoughts, washing some treasures that were kind of rusty...
So I removed from the bottom of the drawers memories that I don't use and no longer want !
Threw away some dreams , some illusions ...
Gift wraps I never used, smiles I never gave; threw away the anger and the rancor of dry flowers that were inside a book I never read.
I looked at my future smiles and my aspired happiness...and I placed them on a corner, neatly.
I lost my patience!
Removed everything from inside the closet and started throwing them on the floor : hidden passions, suppressed desires, horrible words that I wish I had never said, grudge against a friend, memories of a sad day...
But there were other things in there too ... beautiful things !!!!
A bird singing at my window sill ... that silver moon , the sunset ...
I started to rejoice and to enjoy , looking at each one of those memories.
I sat on the floor to be able to make my choices.
I threw right on a garbage bag the remains of a love the hurt me. Took the words of anger and pain that were on the top shelf, because I rarely use them and put right in the same bag.
Some other things that still hurt me I put on the side to see what I am going to do with them. If I forget them right there or if I send them to the dumpster.
Then , I went to that corner ; to that drawer we keep everything that matters: the love , the happiness, the smiles , a little bit of faith for the moments we need the most.
How wonderful it was to remember all that !!!!
I gather LOVE with care , folded WISHES neatly, sprayed HOPE with some perfume , dusted the shelf that holds my goals and left them exposed in order not to loose sight of them.
Placed on the bottom shelves some childhood memories , on the top drawer the ones from my teenage years and hanging right in front of me I placed my ability to love ...
And most of all , my ability to START ALL OVER ...
